Born This Way

Mistreated

You are delusional, how could you think that less of yourself? It's hard for me to just sit there and see you talk so mean about yourself. Truth is, people need to be made like you instead. You're filled with so much hatred, I just can't see you go through everything I do, you deserve so much better. You are underestimated, You are fucking perfect.

Apathetic

Christmas is just like any other day for me. It was nothing special, same routine as every other day. I wonder how people around me are all so jolly and happy at the moment. Christmas was better when we were all kids and nothing else on our minds but just lollipops and rainbows.

I got so much through my mind right now, life is complicated. Did anyone say life was going to be easy? No. I know I complain a lot but this year has just been so different to the last and the previous and all the rest. I feel Apathetic as each day goes by with no excitement, not looking forward to anyone. Deep down inside I know I have lost my innocence and my childhood, I've moved on and it really seems like I'm becoming an adult.

I hate that I have no one to talk to about everything I'm going through, there's just no one that cares enough to listen.

I hate how self conscious I am, with everything about my self, I do not like one thing about myself. It's funny cause earlier this year and last year I didn't, but that's all changed.

Earthfan.

FACT: One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else. There's nothing you can do but just smile, say congratulations and slowly start to fade into the background.

Why do the good die young?

The good Die young. It's a true statement.
I know this is hard for you, but just know all of your friends are here for you. If you need to talk to anyone of us. We are all here in support of you and your family!
I hope everything is okay! Just remember to stay strong and that it's okay to cry!

I didn't know you that well, but I've heard all but good things. Your memory will stay strong amongst your family and friends.

Rest In Peace, Chanel Mackenzie

Graduaation!

I know this is late as. But I GRADUATED!
Dinner was awesome. It was such a blast. The time I spent with the 10 people was amazing. I can honestly say they all mean so much to me!
Me and chantelle went to packcakes on the rocks! Which was a mission
Dinner at rashays! With the teachers LOL
We dressed up and everything :)
Then went to santo's house which was MEMORABLE! <3

Mess Of Mine.

I'm just really over my whole life. I wish i could just give it all up. No one cares what I go through nor does anyone understand. I'm out with it. My life isn't some happy fairytale like I make it seem, it's filled with problems, issues, rejection, A LOT of things I just don't need.

I'm fine I'm not okay.

I'm over it.

Sucks to be me.

Keep A Child Alive~

Donate to this wonderful cause. It is so nice to see everyone putting there money together for this!
http://buylife.org/index.php#lady-gaga
So far $106,659.03 has been raised!
I just donated $10 to help keep a child alive in India and Africa!
Fight Aids/HIV!

Reminiscent

You really don't realise just what you have until it's gone.

I would give it all to go back to how it used to be.

I play it all fine in the limelight, but I can't handle it when I turn off my night light.

Till the sunrise.

Second day of summer. Strangely enough it has been raining non stop for the last few weeks. I love rain. It Free's the spirit. It Liberates. There is just something about it that just makes me feel so much better.

Monday is graduation. I can't quite put my finger on if it's a good thing, or a bad. BUT just after that is lunch and dinner, which is exciting!
- Circular Quay, Pancakes on the rocks
- Rashay's for dinner

Fun.

Past Life

They say that true love hurts. Well this could almost kill me. Young love murder. That is what this must be. I would give it all, to not be living alone.
The life is fading from me, While you watch my heart bleed. Young love murder, that is what this this must be!

Remember the time we, jumped the fence when the bands were playing, and we were to broke to get in. You held my hand and then made me crawl. I swear to God that it was the best night of my life. Or when you took me, across the world. We promised this would last forever but now I see.

It was my past life.
A beautiful time.

Going Insane.

I love you so much, but I don't know how to tell you. And I don't want to see what would happen if I did tell you.

I'm scared of loosing you.
They say that true love hurts. Well then this will almost kill me

Tomorrow is another yesterday.

I feel so out of place, Like I don't belong, but not to a particular place just life in general. My life has changed so much in the last year, way to much change for my liking. I don't know the point of my days, I look forward to nothing. I watch the clock tick, go around a full circle. I go to sleep, wake up. Live the same day over and over again.

I feel like I'm home sick. But only sick of living what I am now, and missing the old days. Back then, there was nothing to worry about, I had a reason to wake up to a new day, to people that wanted me around.

My life lacks interest, it sucks seeing you go on with your life like nothing affects you. I wish I was like that. I keep everything bottled up inside, and never express it on the outside. It feels like the whole world is moving whilst i stand there observing everyone going about with there lives cheerfully and living it to the full. I still long for the day where everything will be back to normal. Put back to its place. That's the day that I'm waiting for. I hold faith that it will come around, but as days go on, the more I begin to loose that faith.

Tomorrow is just another yesterday.

Freeze the moment.

This week has been so much fun, I can guarantee this has been one of the most fun I've had in my whole life.

The people I met, and gotten closer with, the inside jokes, MY TEAM <3 They were all amazing. It scares me that in about 2 years I will be finished school at this time. Never see 90% of people from school in my life. The fact that friends from my year are leaving this year to go other schools just makes it worse. I don't talk to every friend, but going to school with some of them for as long as 6 years, then suddenly not seeing them would kill me.

Truth is, I don't want to grow up. I want to live this moment, here forever.
This whole year has been the most amazing year I've had, this whole year has been an experience that I will never forget.

If There Was An Earthquake

Maybe Then You'd Love Me

How could you ever let me go?



In the words of the amazing Lady Gaga

Love Sucks

Ah I'm so confused at the moment. I hate it. I hate the way I'm feeling. I hate how you don't know how much you mean to me. I hate that I don't mean the same thing to you that you mean to me.

You have no idea how many times I wish I could have the courage to just tell how I feel.
If I tell you I really don't know how that would affect our friendship. Will it affect is positively or negatively? I think the main reason Im straining myself from telling you is because I know you can do a lot better. Lets face it you can.

I hate having bad self esteem

As much as I like you, I'm sick of it being like this.
should I be happy that I still have you as a friend? or be upset about the fact that I know you won't want it to be more? But don't worry If you say "Oh well can we just be friend" I'll be okay with it. It can just go with all the hundreds I've heard before.

Fuck, I'm so over teenager love, seriously. Its bullshit. Love = Bullshit.

I hate seeing you sad , I wish I could just say something. You affect me so badly. If you don't talk to me I will get paranoid that you hate me. If you do talk to me, I don't want it to stop. I go to school with you constantly bombarding my mind.

The hardest thing about this confession is I might just ruin what we had. I don't want to loose what we had. The hardest part is I know you will never look at me the same. I really don't want to spend my whole life wondering about how it would feel like for you to know.

I Hate being in love. Why did I have to fall in love with you?

Tomorrow Has Gone

FFS It's finally over! Its finished, la fin, finis!

School certificate basically killed my life, this was by far the hardest time for me. I have found out how reliant I am on technology, but hey I'm still here :D
I survived!
My weekends were horrible it was basically
1. Wake up
2. Study
3. Go to sleep

I loved my weekends

but its over! Now its basically P-A-R-T-Y

*Until next year of course*

BORN THIS WAY

Dear lady gaga

Please release "born this way" already and stop teasing us with your tweets about the album. :D
we need this album.
We all know the cover art is going to be you riding a unicorn.
#Releasebornthisway!

thank you :D

Don't Call My Name

Falling for someone you’ve never met in person, makes you realize that you look for personality more than looks.

Run To You

Whenever I'm left in the cold
Whenever there is pain my soul
Whenever I'm loosing control
and I feel like I'm all alone
When ever I'm lost and confused
Whenever its hard to break through
The only thing left I can do, is Run

and I run to you, always.

You're My Disease

Isn't it funny how when your love swept you'll do anything just for the one you love?
Every time you needed me, I'd be there, but when I needed you. you weren't there
But know that I know it wasn't meant to be, I gotta go and move on.
I'll never give myself to someone just like I gave it to you.

Truth is
I'm Moving On I can't close the door and move on

You're The One To Blame

Life's been so different, but not in the good way. I've just been so dull lately, lets just say for the last two years nothing has gone my way.
It sucks, but there's not much I can do about it

I hate how your life's going so perfectly, you have everything you could want, everything is going your way.

What more is there for me to look forward to?

Release your Inner Mons†er

Note to self

F***, I'm so over school, I try so hard yet I don't do the best. Maybe I just expect to much from myself.
I failed my science trials. I'm so disappointed, I failed by TWO marks.
I passed my English trials, but only JUST. Sucks heaps.

Although I did get 75% in my maths multiple choice, and did pass the Non calculator section. Hoowever I failed part three, but just. so overall Maths I did okay. I thought I was going to fail everything in maths so that's a relief

I got 78% in History.

Note to self:
FCK YOU SELF EXPECTATIONS

Study For science
Improve in English

The Last Thing I Need Is Another Episode

Ah lately I've been using this Blog as a place for me to rant. but I guess that's a good thing for me, and maybe to some who like reading this. If you don't like rants, Id recommend you stop reading now.

Once again, I totally Hate love. Its been like a constant theme of my last 3 blog posts.
I don't know why I like you,

Have you ever met someone, then suddenly end up liking them, but you have
no idea what attracts you to them? I can't quite explain what I feel for you, nor
describe my feelings, but I do know I NEED you in my life
But the problem is, I don't know how to get you in my life, I wish you were reading this,
but I know its more than likely that you aren't.
If that little glimpse of chance brought you here just know. I Love You

I know I'm the last person you want loving you, cause lets face it, I'm just a friend.. To be honest, I dont know if you even consider me to be a friend or not. I'm probably just another one thats trying to hard to get your attention.

You don't know what you mean to me, You mean the world right now
Everytime I talk to you, its hard not to smile, it just feels perfect. You're always on my mind no matter what time it is.
But you just don't see it, to you I'm just another guy
I wish I had never met you, Cause I wouldn't be going through so much pain.

"The more I give, The less I get. I was fine until you entered my life. But Don't worry, Ill be over you. By tomorrow. The next day. I'll survive"

It's Over

Fxck Love
Fxck My Life
Fxck Distance
Fxck Everything


Earthfan.

My Life Is Staged

Pourquoi ai-je t'aimer?

Today was a big stage in my life, I took one of my Interests to the next step. Acting. Performing on a stage with 50 paying audience members watching you. The flashing lights reflecting on your eyes. You look forward seeing nothing but black, Hoping that they are enjoying it.
The strain on your body as you wait for your Que feels like it takes hours. Though when its time, its all finished in an instance, at the speed of light.
I gave it my all. We all did.

Tomorrow is another day. Another act. Another facade.

You're on my mind like crazy.
As Cliche as that sounds. It's true
Though, Sadly we've run out of words, ran out of time. Ran out of reasons on why we should be together at all. huh?
Lets just call it quits. its probably Better.

It's Over

If You think love is hard, Raise your hand.
*Raises hand*

Ah..Sure I'm happy most of the time, but Love.. Oh how I despise that word.

Here I go ranting.

.. Love has always been a hard for thing for me, trust me when you go through what I have, You loose a lot of confidence. Nothing works. You see everyone around you happy, smiling, having the times of their lives. Deep down inside I've had enough.

"personality is everything"
I got one thing to say. That's BULLSHIT. IMO
Everyone says that it counts, but last time I checked it didn't.

You will never realise how much you mean to me. I try to talk to you, but You just don't care do you? I try to tell you so many times, you just don't see it do you?
But I don't blame you. You can do so much better, trust me.
I Can't stand to see your smile, every time I die.

I guess It's best we don't talk at all.
.. I used to be trippin' over missing you. But I shouldn't anymore
I'm trying to erase you from my mind.
Cause I know what ever I do You will NEVER feel the same way.
I hope you have a great future, and I wish you the best of luck...

Earthfan~

You Make It So Difficult

Its Two o' clock and I wish that I was sleeping. You're in my head like a song on the radio.
I'm Sitting her and turning minutes into hours, just to find the nerve to talk to you.

I'm Over It

- Oh Hey, What's wrong?

- Oh Nothing. I'm fine :)

Ah, I Love keeping a facade, so no one see's my true emotions

You don't know My Story
And You Never Will

You Say Hello, I Say Goodbye

It's hard. Its hard for me to face the truth, hard for me to act.
I keep telling myself to act, but part of me restrains. I'm Sorry
It may look like this doesn't affect me, but oh dear, you don't know what I'm going through.

Je veux ton amour

Great, schools tomorrow.
Don't you hate that feeling on a Sunday, when you know school is on the next day.
It restrains you from having fun.

I really don' t look forward to school anymore, nor do I have a reason I should look forward to it.

Things to look forward to do
1. Trials
2. School Certificate
= Nothing

My Patience Is Running Thin

When the hell is Polaroid going to bring back the

Polaroid SX-70!?

Who Am I Living For?

I'm sitting here listening to the sound of my fingers hitting the keyboard whilst I type and an earphone in one ear playing"Bad Romance".
Strangely all this has brought me to think and question myself.

Who Am I Living For?

I mean the only one who is truly keeping me going and keeping me on the rails at the moment is Lady gaga. (plus my friend Chantelle)
But im keeping so much faith, belief, respect in someone I have never met, nor talked to.
Just like god, we keep so much faith, belief for someone we don't know if they exist.
Though myself I do happen to believe in god pretty strongly.


I live my life going through day to day, with nothing to look forward to. I go to school, I come home. That's my routine. I love my life Life has been pretty dull lately.
I'm over it, I feel like leaving my life, I mean it wont affect anyone's life right?

You brought me to life~

We said we would keep all our promises, it be us against the world. We Talked about our future's like we actually had a clue
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you. In another life I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were the one that got away.

Sometimes when I miss you I put those records on.

I can see the writing on the wall, I can't ignore this war.

Earthfan~

This Is Not Like The Movies~

I'm not sticking around to watch you go down and burn.

Last Friday Night~

This Friday has been a very serious one, I don't know what to do.
I'm confused, stressed out, worried and reminiscing
But then again this has been on my mind forever, Oh dear why can't you leave me alone.
Go Away.
I want things to go back to the time where I didn't have to worry about anything, My life was stress free. It was fun. I didn't care. I was FREE


"Last Friday night
Yeah we danced on tabletops
And we took too many shots
Think we kissed but I forgot

Last Friday night. Yeah we maxed our credit cards
And got kicked out of the bar
So we hit the boulevard
Last Friday Night."

You are the Kings and Queens and I am the Devoted Jester~

We Are Invincible~

TODAY TODAY TODAY!
How good was our day.

Today, our school had an Art festival, which was themed as Superhero's and expectations.
Many came in casual, only some went hard core!
It was so exciting, I went as Ash Ketchum from Pokemon!
C'mon who didn't watch pokemon as a kid? HE WAS MY HERO
Some people agreed with me :) when they were like "I USED TO LIKE YOU AND WATCH YOU" (not creepy at all)

As soon as I put on my costume, I was invisible.
As soon as everyone put on their costumes, we were ALL invisible.
No one, nothing could've ruined our days <3

I had to act out a play about expectations....Yeah I hyperventilated everytime before I started the act. We had to act it 4 times and watch every other act 4 times. It felt like Deja Vu.

Today was the best day ever <3 Thank you to everyone that was in it, no matter if I didnt talk to you, You all made my day! The costumes, the atmosphere, the performances!
If you ever doubt yourself, just put your costume on and know you are INVINCIBLE!
Happy SUPAHERO Day :)

But, I Can't Move On

I told you I moved on, but I might be going back on my word.

Realisation

Ah, I'm so hungry, it's not funny. I forgot to wake up and eat -__-;;

Anyway, Tomorrow I start work experience at K-mart for a week.
and i have to wear;

• White Button up Shirt
• Black tie
• Black pants
• Leather shoes

And the next few mornings, I'm going to tie a tie and work at K-Mart.
I don't know, it got me to realise, I'm growing up, and soon life will revolve around work and not school.

Hopefully everything goes well ~

Earthfan

Expect Nothing!

Expectations...
Ah god how much I hate it. I hate everything to do with it!
I hate expectations, Don't expect me to be good at something!
Not everyone is good at everything, sometimes it takes time for people to improve, and the fact that people judge you on that, disgusts me.
I feel like writing expectations on a piece of paper and burning it.
(sounds like a good idea for a photo :D)
When you think about it, expectations exist everywhere, within homes, schools, public.
If you go out, people expect you to do something bad just because you are a teenager. To be honest the media blows a lot of things out of proportion.
Expected to fit in.
Expected to be excellent
Expected to always be happy
Expected to be NORMAL

People commonly say "Don't care what everyone thinks"
Sure that could be the case at times, but other times you just can't help it and you end up caring, you have everyone's eyes focused on you, there judging you, like your there prey.
You just can't help it.

I Keep Reminiscing

Lately everything's been weird, like .. i don't know its hard to explain.
I keep thinking about the past, even when i don't realize I am, or also the fact when i don't want to be thinking about the past.

I'm not the type of person that will forget something quick, or just move on, it takes time for me. Sometimes, it will never leave and it will stay as extra weight on my shoulders.

If i could change things in my past, i would surely change a lot of things. but they do say "Everything happens for a reason" .. so maybe I have to move on.



Earthfan~

Happy Birthday!

Everythings Changed For The Better

..Life has been different lately, But to be honest I like it.
Lately, i've gotten the love for photography back <3, on the weekends I ended up buying a $499 Lens for my SLR. (Oh and yeah it might seem like a rip of to you, but the highest lens they had went for sale between $4,000 and $6,000) So it was a pretty good deal, consider that it zooms out a lot :3

Great for concerts, I might add *CoughGAGA!cough*

Also planning to buy a DSLR, which basically means; Digital SLR.
Except i have to save up $1,200. Greaaaat.

But I've also made other changes in my life, I've gotten closer to the people that i moved on from. I didn't intentionally do it, it's just that through changes from Public school and High school, you tend to change.
I've also got Work experience at Kmart, and also maybe have a chance at working for ..QANTAS! ..I know how exciting!
That means Me and a friend, will get to travel to places like Dubbo, Bathurst and also maybe places like QLD! ..For free.. Working :)

This Past 5 weeks have been awesome! There are a lot of things happening for me, to keep me busy and keep my mind off of certain things.

Oh and before I Go
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY AIMEE VO!
She's finally able to get her drivers license, good on her!

Oh and Chantelle got her Drivers License too :)

Earthfan.

It Takes Time

Ah Just a quick entry since I haven't been on here much.
Quite busy with mostly nothing, sums up what i've been doing with my life.
I don't know, people always say their away's "busy"
but when I say it, i'm normally busy..with quite frankly nothing, yet something
..makes me "busy"

Anyway, today was quite a fun day, we saw a production from Bell Shakespeare, now these people are AMAZING!
They also organised the last Play that our school saw at the Opera House.
I noticed that the girl in the show was the same girl from the last one, surprisingly the white (no racism intended) girl acted "Gangsta". It was quite funny, i would've liked it better if there was actually a Q&A after it.

Overall today was a good day, except I kept thinking to myself about various things, mostly how things don't come for "granted" You can't just suck up to someone to get something. You got to earn it. In this world their are two types of people one that will 1. Suck up to get what they want or 2. People that go through tough times through their life, no matter what situation that might be. But they work themselves up in life, no matter for what it may be.
Reminds me of the movie "The Persuit of Happyness" Really good Movie!
Ah I don't know, don't ask...I think it was relating to career, School certificate.

Earthfan~

This Isn't Love

Hey Blog!
Oh god this is another one of those "I have nothing to say" blogs :D
So ill try to make it work.

Holidays are ending in 1 Day, boring, school back. More Stress.
Whilst i was getting my haircut, the lady asked "Why are you stressing" and i said "I stress a lot"
...and she laughed.
She was nice though.

School is stressful considering trials are this term and SC next term. Woo Great, Can't wait for Maths SC "If you didn't get that, it was sarcasm, just sayin'"

I am addicted to the Guild, a webshow on youtube, a lot of me wishes my life was what they're show is like.

At the Moment, im dying my hair blue. something tells me it'll look weird. Ah who cares it's my hair and its fixable. "PLEASE LOOK GOOD"


"Be inspired to ignore their ignorant message, and feel gratitude in your heart that you are not burdened or addicted to hate, as they are. X" ~ lady gaga

Awesome Face!

wooo, i guess today has been a better day then yesterday.
I spent all morning talking to people haha 12-6 then i thought i would get some sleep since the sun started to rise.
I woke up at 2 or 3, i believe.
I guess thats the routine for holidays, going to bed really late about 12-1 etc and waking up at that time in the afternoon.

So basically another dull day except it wasn't t bad,
ah so lets see what i did today

• i worked on something im trying to make.
• Watched Masterchef and the person i wanted gone is GONE!
  
• Talked to Phillip Som *he forced me into this, he put a gun to my head D:*

So yeah not a BIG day but hey, it was something :D
Just a short entry.
There's one more weeks of holidays, lets hope its enjoyable.

Earthfan~

So Happy I Could Die, And It's Alright

Oh God, I am Over the moon.
So basically right On GagaDaily, which is this huuge website community of Little Monsters (Hell yeeeah). Well the owners fiance, Mel, did the NICEST thing EVAR!

....

..... She made a Book that will be given to Gaga with A Letter And a piece of Artwork done by us Little Monsters.
This is her SECOND book. The first one that was done in the of 2009 to start of 2010
*Above* is her reading the book, she read all of the entries and took pictures of the artworks she loved. I can't find the other pictures but whatever you get the point :D

Well this book got over 2,000 Entries! and before I go on I would like to thank Mel and Griz! You guys are AWESOME! Seriously! Now this book is going to cost a lot for them the last one cost $400 and it had less than half of the amount of entries. The deadline was about a three days ago. I panicked cause i nearly didn't get it in, but i did <3

Well Me and my Bestfriend Entered and with it guaranteed to be given to Gaga this thursday...*dies* I'm so excited.

You guys have no idea how much i fit in that one page that i could write, I wrote A LOT! i told her how she has inspired me to stand up against a lot of things first of all inspire me to be myself and be crazy and don't be afraid of going against the crowd.
But also standing up for things like racism and bullying. "NOH8" is a company she supports which stops bullying and hatred against each other.

My artwork was a collage of drawings, photographs of inspired work of hers *one of them being the "eating heart" scene at the Monster Ball*

My other friend wrote a lot too! She wrote a lot of what she kept inside in that letter.
..Oh and we also gave her our twitters, there were a lot of strict rules on what we could do, we couldnt give phone numbers etc ONLY TWITTER :D

..I don't care if she doesn't shout me out on twitter, but the fact i was 100% honest with her and told her EVERYTHING about whats been going on in my life, makes me "So happy I could die"

before I end this...The lady gaga community is AMAZING! You have no idea how awesome and caring they are! I've made so many new friends on Gaga Daily, if any of you are reading this, You guys are amazing! every single one you people!

I'm So Excited For Thursday :D The Day She Receives it.

Earthfan~

Walking with you no more~

If There is something you believe in, Stand up for it.
Just remember, "it only takes one to make a difference"

I remember this from an excursion we went to, i don't know i guess it just meant a lot to me. No one should have to be suffering through life. Life should be happy! enjoy it, every moment and cherish it <3
Don't let anyone push you around or if someone around is being pushed around, being made fun of! stand up for it! Everyone deserves to be happy.
If its going on around you and you aren't doing anything. Trust me from experience, a lot of guilt is involved, i couldn't take it anymore.
Lets make the world a happy place (even though its very unlikely it will ever be peaceful)
Just remember it Only takes one to make a difference.

Earthfan~

You're Wasting Your Breath.

Yo Blog! :D

Just Random Entry.

Today;

• Moviies
• Toy Story
• Predators

Yes Fun!!
But this still makes my holidays boring.
Atmosphere sucks around me.
Whatever i do
I will always know that i will never be happy on the inside.
Sure.. I'll act like im having the best time of my life
Oh and Actually Act like i care.
But to be honest. ..My attitude is "meh"
I'm over it.

"Cause it's a hard life with love in the world"

Today I talked to two of these random.. Welsh and English People?
I can't remember, they kept talking about the environment and how Australia isn't doing enough to protect the rivers etc etc.
They had a point.
People should care about the environment more, sure don't give a damn now, but ..would you want an environment that's dry? restricted resources? No.
So why should our next generation through that.

What is art?

What is Art? Well today got me thinking. What is Art?I mean what makes something "Art" Something new and innovative? Something that catches your eye? Does it have to look "Good" to be called Art?

Observe this; http://www.gaganews.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2009/12/Gaganews-Monster-Ball-Puke1.jpg

Okay, This picture is from the Monster
This picture is from an Interlude (a video/audio that usually plays during a concert usually after a song.)
Well this scene was basically A Girl puking on Lady gaga... and the puke is blue.
..Art?
It could well be Art, considering this could be interpreted in a lot of different ways.
The old life of lady gaga throwing up her new life?
The society in the time when the people she knew didn't accept her for who she was?
No one will know. Because this all can be interpreted in different ways.

BUT
Thats not the case here, well it kind of is but there is more.
The "Puke" wasn't computer generated at all!
It was real!
and she is actually a read "artist" some might call it.
Her Name is "Puking Millie"
She creates Artworks using her own "Puke" on canvas.

My Opinion. I don't find it very artistic at all.
I like art .. But throwing up colours on a Canvas? isn't revolutionary or artistic at all.
I Appreciate Art a lot, but this almost seems like a mockery.
and her artworks sell for thousands?

I give props to her... I guess for using her own technique in make the "..Puke" change colours, i don't know how she does it... I actually don't want to know.

All this is quite disgusting. Hanging up a canvas in your bedroom that smells like someones puke?
Ew. LOL

Tell me What you think? Is it Art or Not?
Earthfan~

Im Back, Better Than Ever~

"Oh Hay There, I Didn't see you there"
Don't you just hate when people say that?
I know I do.
But that's not the case here. I'm Back!

Woah, it's been a while hasn't it? ever since the last blog that i entered..
Which was quite a while ago.

It's the holiday! Time to Par-tae! Wooo

.... No

Holidays for me, SUCK!
Sure, there's the odd occasion, where I have a blast.
But Majority .. Bad!

There's a lot that this blog has missed out on since my last entry.
but this time I'm sure that I will not leave this blog out

EVER
(well i say that, but you guys know me. I won't keep this thing updated. But what the hey! Ill give it another go)

Earthfan~

Got My Flash On ~ Its True

Today was one of the weirderest, besterest day in my whole life, it actually involved me somewhat feeling like im stalking someone down. LOL

Okay let me go through a brief list of what happened.
- Had a somewhat paranormal activity in the park
- got driven around all day by my friend chantelle :D
- Broke down 2 times =-= and were stuck there for like 15 minutes
- Filmed somewhat of a parody that sucked of telephone :D Called ...."lesbian sensation?" HAHA
- Where scared of two kids as they thought we were stalking them, when really we broke down near there house, and we had to hide cause they looked like they were calling the cops LOL
- somewhat partied at a friends house :D
- drove around in circles blasting music
- Went to school one day EARLY :D with Bad romance on and .. it wasnt good LOL

Okay c'mon it was like weird
OH and when we broke down, my magical jesus hands turned on the car outta no where.

Main song to fit this day..."paparazzi - lady gaga" and some fcked up song! ;D

Weeeeiiiird :]

anyway, school is tomorrow, and its going to be a drag, i saw teachers and as they all asked me about my assignments i panicked LOL
Wish me good luck :D

Earthfan

Just...Go Away

Today was the worst day ever, dont you hate when your parent
gives and spends more money on your sibling and they do nothing for you?
well thats what happened today FRICK, i askd for $60 like yesterday and they said no,
but today they spend $83 on my sibling? FCK YOU! im sorry for the language im just very angry
about this =-=

This got me thinking on all the negatives things on my life while i walk the markets
atleast 5 metres infront of my family; angry, saddened

I always get bagged on for who i am, why? is uniqueness a bad thing? is it illegal
for me to have my hair like this? is it illegal to like to like the music i do, IM NOT COMMITING IM A CRIME! im being myself.
Sometimes i think i have no one thats on my side, someone that cares and i can trust,
i look around everyones joyous and happy yet im hiding what i really feel
on this mask im wearing, the mask contains happyness, smiles and laughs
but really im hiding what i really feel on the inside, ANGER! SADNESS! =-=;;

Its not just people, it can also be my family that bags on me, fck man leave me alone!
FCK GET THE FCK AWAY FROM ME! EVERYONE!
Nothings goes my way
i never get the person i like, i never get the respect i deserve =-=

Ah im probably sounding stuck up right now, but ive had it!
sometimes i just feel like running away and leaving it all behind, i dont want to see anyone again!

Im glad i have this blog to express how i feel.


How much do you guys wanna make a bet, im going to get bagged on for this blog entry =-=;;

Earthfan~

But, I cant move on

Today has been one of the most boring days in my life,
the past couple of days things have really bringing me down,
which kinda sucks. I imagined my life to be fun, full on never have a time where
im not enjoying myself. Turns out i was wrong.

I feel as though im loosing people i am close too,
not everyone just certain people, am i okay with that?
NO!
I hate it, i don't know what to do. People always say you're not going
know that person forever, and you just have to move on and not
let it bother you
"After a while, you learn that you don't need anyone else to survive.
No one is ever going to be there.
You just have to suck it up and keep going." Vanessa~
but i just cant, i always keep people close to me, even if i barley know them yet
you know when you barley know someone? and you feel as though you have an
instant connection with them? and they make your day just so much better?
fact is i don't want to loose anyone, but really the reality of this is 85% of the people
i know today and talk to, will probably forget me in the next 10 years or slowly fade away
after school is done.


Another thing i dislike, is someone that was very close to you in primary, friend wise
Just doesn't work anymore, they've moved on, barley talk to you
when really you actually want to talk to them and want it to be like it used to be
back in the days. I feel as though slowly im loosing everyone, the only thing ill have left is the memories.

I guess i should just deal with it? and get over it and face the fact that things change and most likely it won't go back to way it used to be.

Earthfan~

The Monster Ball; Farewell GaGa

The Monster Ball 7/4/2010 a day that will never be forgotten

Lady gaga is seen to be one of the most outrageous artists in the music industry, she is fresh, cool and funky!
but shes more than that aswell, on the monsterball she gave the crowd a speech to not give up! to believe in yourself and never let anything or anyone let you down "Dont give a F*** about what anyone thinks about you" Lady GaGa. After being to two of her concerts, i just dont know how people can put her down like that, she is amazing talent, i knew this was a "lip sync free zone" as i heard her panting through the microphone whilst pumping out the crowd through Just dance, She danced, she entertained it was a SHOW !

"as i was singing bad romance last night, and the energy and fever of the monsters became, at once, a great storm--an aussie flag appeared, So like a pop conquistador, i imagine my future return, with many wenches and music. So until then i wish you all the love in the universe." Lady Gaga


Lady GaGa, yours words will continue to inspire me, you are a true inspiration <3
Rah Rah Ah Ah Ah *Raises Monster Claw*

Bad Hair Day..Reaaally Bad Hair Day

Argh! Today i went and got my haircut, i was all excited about it and i thought it would look mad until the hairdresser started cutting my hair. it looked fine for a while and i thought it was going all good, until at the end she showed me D:
Its hard for me to tell someone off, so i couldnt really say anything
lets just say i had a long fringe and now i have .... A TIIIINNNNY fringe =-=
Ew
LOL i guess i should just deal with it, like some people dont even have hair right?
i should be glad aye?
And i guess its a new look even though when i look in the mirror i wanna throw something at it and burn the mirror :]
thats how bad it looks to me.
and i have two IMPORTANT places to go with my ugly hair
Eastershow
and
Lady Gaga
im pretty sure even lady gaga will tell me off for the hideous hair i have :]

Okay lets just hope it'll grow a tiny bit in 4 days? D:

Earthfan~

It's Going Down

The Holidays have started, Joy -.-;;

Today is Good friday and i was planning not to eat meat, but i failed, theres always next year right?

Now everyones excited for the holidays, and today was one of the most boringest days for me and if this is how the holidays are going to go for me, I want school to come back D:

Okay now things i have planned for the holidays
Easter show, no matter which one i just want to go to A easter show and just have fun, a blast! im thinking about going with a friend to a free easter show on Monday. The Sydney royal easter show cost $20 JUST for the entry.
Shouldnt it be free? C'mon its easter, Lets celebrate together. its still tough times for the economy, it shouldve been free for everyone to enjoy, right?

Lady GaGa concert on April 7th Wednesday, Now this im looking forward to, im glad i finally got to go to her concert and now again? Shes an inspiration.

Mooovies! I NEED TO SEE KICK ASS!
Its going to be hilarious, it looks like one of those cheesy comedy movies but its still going to be hilarious :]

Tell me what you guys are doing for your holiday (if in australia)

Perserverance is the key

Today at school, we had a person come in to talk to us, it really got me thinking about what he said, Why do people in rich schools get half of there year group getting above 90 in a SC or HSC

yet a school like mine will barley get 1?

in other words, i think he was trying to emphasise our school was one of those crap schools, like c'mon how long has it been since someone from our school has got above 95%?

maybe 2-3 years ago?

Now if you go to an ordinary public high school you would get what i mean

but who's to blame? the students? Teachers? ourselves? well i believe it's ourselves, kids at richer schools just have more perseverience and commitment, no offence to public schools but theres always those "kids" that just ruin your studying.

I think teachers are a factor as well, teachers in rich schools are more experiened, more trained...overalll better.

So if you have been following my youtube, which i doubt cause theres no link on here

http://www.youtube.com/RoboWhxre

Ive been trying to be organised since the beginning year, i guess i have kinda been more organised.

So one thing I think we all should take in advice is that the key to schooling is

PERSERVERANCE! :D

Remeber we normally one get this chance once, have fun in school and enjoy it whilsts it lasts :D

Don't Call My Name ~

Once again i am proud to say, Earthfan has attended the FIRST EVER! LADY GAGA SOLO CONCERT! and now the LAST One of them
Yeah thats right i get to go again!
The Monster Ball Here I come, Im so excitied, i love this lady so much! she is a true inspiration and now i get to see her twice?
I recommend you guys buy yourself a ticket! And enjoy this massive spectacular show!
Trust me, you wont regret it!
The atmosphere is amazing, everything the outfits, the music, the audience singing it all goes together and just explodes as one massive show.

Monster Ball, Here I Come Again
Rah Rah Ah Ah, Roma Roma Ma~

Too Much School Will Kill You?

Okay so my day today, My day today was very dull, the day was as boring as ever, it feels like school is just dying on me, i see everyone having fun, i just don't see how you can have fun in a subject like Math or Geography. Its just the same routine over and over again, Come on i can't be the only one saying that right?

We spend 12 years in school and some of us even more, in pre-school all for one major thing the HSC, and when i think about it, if i fail it or don't get the mark i want, i have wasted all my life for this?
I've been studying and studying and i do see a change in my marks, they have been getting better, but ive been doing this for like nearly 9 years.
I strive to achieve a business related job, and i shall need a ATAR around 80-99 to get anywhere near that.

I dont see the point of people dropping out, you wasted 10 years in school just to drop out? or go to tafe? and then go uni late? Whatever
You'd be better on staying 2 years more for that HSC, its just something everyone should have, you didnt waste going to school for 10 YEARS! just to drop out?

So what do you guys think? Reply
Do You think if people drop out of school in year 10 or 11 just because there tired of school? have just wasted there schooling life?

EarthFan~

Guess What? Im Back!

Ah internet, telsta = fail
if your thinking of switching to telstra, would you really want to switch to a company that is bitchy, had crap customer service and gives you the same excuse all the time?
Trust me stick to your provider

Okay! Well i havent been on Blogspot for ages! as my internet hasn't been working!
So I'm Back! :]

Things i've been up to, mm

-Lady Gaga Concert
-Got My School Laptop
- Moved Houses

So you guys will be reading a lot more, so stay tuned as im sure this blog will be the best and the most interesting EVUR! :]

Eartfan~

The Monster Ball

The day had arrived, the day i got to see my inspiration, the one and only, Lady GaGa
Now before you guys start making judgements asking "Why is Lady GaGa Your inspiration" Well its the fact that she doesnt rely on what people think of her, she doesn't care about judgements, how she looks, Get what im trying to say?
she inspires me to be who i am today.

Anyway, I Went to the MONSTER BALL TOUR IN SYDNEY MARCH 17TH!

I was over the moon, when that 3:00 bell rang during math, i ran home and got ready, The atmosphere at the arena was amazing, people singing and dancing to her songs, dressed up, having a good time and not caring what the world things of them.

As the doors Opened at 6pm sharp, everyone ran in singing "Im kinda busy, Eh, Eh, Eh"

The concert was amazing! once again the atmosphere was electrifying, the songs, the outfits everything, the crowd roared "Rah Rah" as bad romance came on, you couldnt even head Lady GaGa sing it anymore cause of the road of the crowd.
Lady GaGa Mentioned that you did not have to have money to have fun at her concert as the ticket was affordable, She also stated the reason for her not having billiiions of dollars is because, she doesnt see a reason for her to have that money, she would rather go all out on the concert.

If your going to be one of those people that say
"Lady GaGa is a man"
"Lady Gaga's songs have no meaning!"
"Shes gay and sucks!"

1. During the concert she made a comment about her being a man and made fun of it, in her new video, she proved to the world she is who she says she is.
2. her songs, when Analysed have deep meaning for example Dance in the dark is about Princess Diana and how the paparazzi killed her and any other woman that had got murdered because of fame

So now my message to everyone is
Be Yourself! Have fun, go out and be who you want to be!
Id rather be hated for who i am then liked for someone im not!
So remember that and have fun, have the time of your lives, don't let your life go to waste! your always going to get put down during the life, but remember its those special things and people that keep you sane and keep going
overcome it and be happy with who you are!

Im out~
EarthFan