Love Sucks

Ah I'm so confused at the moment. I hate it. I hate the way I'm feeling. I hate how you don't know how much you mean to me. I hate that I don't mean the same thing to you that you mean to me.

You have no idea how many times I wish I could have the courage to just tell how I feel.
If I tell you I really don't know how that would affect our friendship. Will it affect is positively or negatively? I think the main reason Im straining myself from telling you is because I know you can do a lot better. Lets face it you can.

I hate having bad self esteem

As much as I like you, I'm sick of it being like this.
should I be happy that I still have you as a friend? or be upset about the fact that I know you won't want it to be more? But don't worry If you say "Oh well can we just be friend" I'll be okay with it. It can just go with all the hundreds I've heard before.

Fuck, I'm so over teenager love, seriously. Its bullshit. Love = Bullshit.

I hate seeing you sad , I wish I could just say something. You affect me so badly. If you don't talk to me I will get paranoid that you hate me. If you do talk to me, I don't want it to stop. I go to school with you constantly bombarding my mind.

The hardest thing about this confession is I might just ruin what we had. I don't want to loose what we had. The hardest part is I know you will never look at me the same. I really don't want to spend my whole life wondering about how it would feel like for you to know.

I Hate being in love. Why did I have to fall in love with you?