Realisation

Ah, I'm so hungry, it's not funny. I forgot to wake up and eat -__-;;

Anyway, Tomorrow I start work experience at K-mart for a week.
and i have to wear;

• White Button up Shirt
• Black tie
• Black pants
• Leather shoes

And the next few mornings, I'm going to tie a tie and work at K-Mart.
I don't know, it got me to realise, I'm growing up, and soon life will revolve around work and not school.

Hopefully everything goes well ~

Earthfan

Expect Nothing!

Expectations...
Ah god how much I hate it. I hate everything to do with it!
I hate expectations, Don't expect me to be good at something!
Not everyone is good at everything, sometimes it takes time for people to improve, and the fact that people judge you on that, disgusts me.
I feel like writing expectations on a piece of paper and burning it.
(sounds like a good idea for a photo :D)
When you think about it, expectations exist everywhere, within homes, schools, public.
If you go out, people expect you to do something bad just because you are a teenager. To be honest the media blows a lot of things out of proportion.
Expected to fit in.
Expected to be excellent
Expected to always be happy
Expected to be NORMAL

People commonly say "Don't care what everyone thinks"
Sure that could be the case at times, but other times you just can't help it and you end up caring, you have everyone's eyes focused on you, there judging you, like your there prey.
You just can't help it.

I Keep Reminiscing

Lately everything's been weird, like .. i don't know its hard to explain.
I keep thinking about the past, even when i don't realize I am, or also the fact when i don't want to be thinking about the past.

I'm not the type of person that will forget something quick, or just move on, it takes time for me. Sometimes, it will never leave and it will stay as extra weight on my shoulders.

If i could change things in my past, i would surely change a lot of things. but they do say "Everything happens for a reason" .. so maybe I have to move on.



Earthfan~