8 Days

Judas, Juda-ah, Judas, Juda -ah, Judas, Juda-ah, Judas, GAGA.

Journey to The Sydney Monster Hall

School is nearly over, only one more day of school left to go.

Once that day is over, the only thing I will be looking forward to is july 13th!

The wait for that one day will be long and hard but I cannot wait for that day to come around and just take place .

I haven't looked forward to something for a while now, I find that my life's been like that lately.

I just have nothing to look forward to.

13 days

Degenerate, Young Rebel.

It's been almost 5 months since my previous post on this blog. I don't know what striked me to go back onto here, but something just clicked.

What's changed in the last 5 months you ask?

-Nothing much

I don't know what to do with my life anymore.

Deep down inside, I've given up, I've lost all hope for myself.

The Worst.

So it's Australia day and I thought I should post here, basically because I have nothing to do. I see people having fun, partying, but I feel so down.

I have so much stress on me right now, I have stress on me a lot of the times, but lately it's doubled. I hate the fact that I never tell anybody about it either, I always just write about it here, but when I do write about it here I'm still holding back. I never show my feelings either, I'm always smiling and what not, I guess that's one of the downsides of me.

Everything is just not working out, and it feels like everything is just bringing me down as the days go on.

My life at home is horrible, I don't think I've ever felt so bad whilst being at home. I don't know, I just feel like I was born into the wrong family... I don't quite exactly fit in with my family. They normally disagree with everything I stand for.

My social life is also quite horrible, I mean this exact date last year, I was feeling so much better, I had people I could surround myself, also I actually had PEOPLE. It's hard, I may have a lot of friends but that's over the Internet, not people I see on a day to day basis. I guess that's one of the things that have changed over the last year...

It was weird, I just finished Summer School. and I have to say, It was one of the best things I've ever done. I wanted it to last forever, but sadly it came to an end. It was horrible, the train ride home felt so bleak. I really did make a lot of good friendships. I can honestly say that summer school was the best thing I've done for a while. I really do miss everyone, even though it's only been 5 days, it feel's like eternity to me.

It's funny because as bas as I feel now, I know it's only going to get worse this year and for all the years to come..