My Life Is Staged

Pourquoi ai-je t'aimer?

Today was a big stage in my life, I took one of my Interests to the next step. Acting. Performing on a stage with 50 paying audience members watching you. The flashing lights reflecting on your eyes. You look forward seeing nothing but black, Hoping that they are enjoying it.
The strain on your body as you wait for your Que feels like it takes hours. Though when its time, its all finished in an instance, at the speed of light.
I gave it my all. We all did.

Tomorrow is another day. Another act. Another facade.

You're on my mind like crazy.
As Cliche as that sounds. It's true
Though, Sadly we've run out of words, ran out of time. Ran out of reasons on why we should be together at all. huh?
Lets just call it quits. its probably Better.

It's Over

If You think love is hard, Raise your hand.
*Raises hand*

Ah..Sure I'm happy most of the time, but Love.. Oh how I despise that word.

Here I go ranting.

.. Love has always been a hard for thing for me, trust me when you go through what I have, You loose a lot of confidence. Nothing works. You see everyone around you happy, smiling, having the times of their lives. Deep down inside I've had enough.

"personality is everything"
I got one thing to say. That's BULLSHIT. IMO
Everyone says that it counts, but last time I checked it didn't.

You will never realise how much you mean to me. I try to talk to you, but You just don't care do you? I try to tell you so many times, you just don't see it do you?
But I don't blame you. You can do so much better, trust me.
I Can't stand to see your smile, every time I die.

I guess It's best we don't talk at all.
.. I used to be trippin' over missing you. But I shouldn't anymore
I'm trying to erase you from my mind.
Cause I know what ever I do You will NEVER feel the same way.
I hope you have a great future, and I wish you the best of luck...

Earthfan~