But, I cant move on

Today has been one of the most boring days in my life,
the past couple of days things have really bringing me down,
which kinda sucks. I imagined my life to be fun, full on never have a time where
im not enjoying myself. Turns out i was wrong.

I feel as though im loosing people i am close too,
not everyone just certain people, am i okay with that?
NO!
I hate it, i don't know what to do. People always say you're not going
know that person forever, and you just have to move on and not
let it bother you
"After a while, you learn that you don't need anyone else to survive.
No one is ever going to be there.
You just have to suck it up and keep going." Vanessa~
but i just cant, i always keep people close to me, even if i barley know them yet
you know when you barley know someone? and you feel as though you have an
instant connection with them? and they make your day just so much better?
fact is i don't want to loose anyone, but really the reality of this is 85% of the people
i know today and talk to, will probably forget me in the next 10 years or slowly fade away
after school is done.


Another thing i dislike, is someone that was very close to you in primary, friend wise
Just doesn't work anymore, they've moved on, barley talk to you
when really you actually want to talk to them and want it to be like it used to be
back in the days. I feel as though slowly im loosing everyone, the only thing ill have left is the memories.

I guess i should just deal with it? and get over it and face the fact that things change and most likely it won't go back to way it used to be.

Earthfan~