Im trying to keep up with writing a blog daily, has been pretty hard, i just sometimes just cant be bothered, not just blogging, for everything, i feel that i give up too early.
I think its been a habit of mine for quite some time.
Okay so to me, this is a very heart felt blog, So here i go.
In school, im probably the guy thats ..always positive? the one that would never cry, never swear, never drink, basically the good guy.
The guy that other people rely on for help and advice and comfort.
But who do i seek when i am in need of someone to talk to? Its really hard for me, outside im this really positive guy that has the time of his life~
On the inside, im someone that has a lot to say, a lot to confess, about my feelings, my emotions.
I know your probably reading this and saying to yourself "Your a guy, get over it".
I always keep everything i fear, everything i feel, emotions inside, i can never remember once in my life where i have talked to someone about how i feel, have someone there for comfort? You know?
I dont know, its just hard, it seems like im standing still whilst everything else is moving, everyday it seems like i'm moving further away.. from myself. Make sense?
if not dont worry, ill end up just sleeping off my worries, like im forced to do all the time.
its just awkward for me to talk to someone genuinely about how i feel, its something i have probably only done once in my life.
Ah, My Day, finally up to this part
My Day was ..Okay i guess, it wasn't the best and it wasn't the worst,
At this moment im fearing my friendship, fearing it will come crashing down,
and just end.
Also, My School are probably the official people to get laptops tomorrow, Joy -.-
but hey i shouldnt complain there free.
Probably the only day im looking forward too.
Another day closer to valentines day, im really starting to fear about this day, everyday i face this day. its the same year after year.
It hurts me so much when i see other people happy together? you know that feeling?
and also when the person you life is with someone else, even though you know you can treat that person better. All of these years, people are happy, this one day just brings so much joy in people, yet not me, i love to make other peoples day, though all the time you kind of wish, something ... like that will happen to you? ever have that feeling.
Anyway This is such a pointless entry, sorry for wasting your time
I treat this blog like a diary =_=;;
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